Looking For an Exit

Sometimes you wanna get away but you cant...you can’t just leave everything you love…care about...you wanna leave…get away from it all find that better part of yourself that you know is in you but you cant ever seem to pull it out ... you need to find that special something...the one thing that’s missing...the one thing that you know is missing but have no idea what it is until you find it... you can’t take things anymore... sometimes we all need a place to go alone....to sit and ponder...think about things...our own happy place that can just suck the pain out of everything....but sometimes we don’t even know where that is anymore…things change and people change…the world will never stop just to focus on you and make things go the way u want them to… we can’t always get what we want and sometimes we take that for granted…there’s good and there’s bad in all of us…no one is perfect but no one seems to understand that…they’ll say it but later on criticize someone for the littlest thing anyone could think of…we all do it…we all say we hate when people are nice to our face but then talk behind our backs but we’ve all done it…no one likes to be bullied but we all do it…we’ve all been through it… we are all human…it’s the little things that make us become better people and all dogs get there days…what goes around comes around and the harder you work the more you gain… (© copyright 2005 )

The Last

My presence goes unnoticed When I'm around youYou smile but not at me You talk but not to me I come last to you You don't want me there You'd rather be with someone else ''Why does everyone treat me like this?'' i ask myself''Is it because i'm boring?'' ''Would you like me to make you laugh?''' 'Would you like me more if i was funny?'' I'm left to wonder and ask myself pointless questions But it doesn't matter Because no matter how hard i try to change I'll will always be myself I'm a disappoint me to be with So i guess i should be lucky to have you I should be lucky you stuck with me And i should stop comparing myself to other people But i wish i could be the one that goes first For once Instead of being the one that goes last (copyright 2005 )

Found the strength

Where did the time go? What ever happened to the sweet little girl that everyone adored? No one could say no to the innocence and perfection of this child. Everything was all good for her and it all seemed so simple. Nothing ever went wrong for her, probably because she never did anything wrong. Until she saw another side of it all. She knew it was wrong but it was new and almost to good to be true. She got hooked up with the wrong kind of people and her life started to spiral down hill. The innocence was lost and her thoughts were blured. It all disappeared and she couldn’t handle it. She no longer was the perfect little girl that every one adored. She started to see the darker side of things. Her life was over…so she thought. She had to end it. She tried so hard to get her innocence back but the shock of realizing that it would never return destroyed her. She turned to pills, cutting and whatever else that seemed to overcome the emotional and mental pain she caused herself. Sex, guys, lies, and hanging out took hold of her. She could no longer hold on, she hated the person she became. No one could help her, she had gone over the deep end. Crying herself to sleep was a daily routine. She lost sight of it all and didn’t seem to care. Nothing mattered anymore. She was at the end of her untangling rope. No one seemed to care anyway, it was all her fault. She was misunderstood. They knew that she was just like the rest. Nothing special about her. Now months later, the girls still lives. She has somewhat recovered from the pains of growing up. She didn’t realize the troubles of the world. She now knows that there is no way to gain nor maintain perfection. She is not that sweet little girl everyone once loved. Sometimes you can tell that she still tries to bring the girl back to life. With having dealt with regretfully losing her virginity at a young age to a *boy* who didn’t care about her at all, being betrayed by people who were closest to her, she still lives.1 year ago she didn’t expect to be alive today. She really didn’t think she’d make it this far. Though what followed her traumatic experience 6 years ago was much worse, she made it through because 1 year ago that girl decided that she would not let anyone or anything make her so sick that she’d dread waking up in the morning. Many do not see the daily battle that this girl has to fight and some don’t care but its ok because she doesn’t need nor does she want anyone’s pity. What matter most to this girl is the fact that one amazing day she was able to find the strength to go on and save another life…her own. (© copyright 2005 )

Always and Forever

You're the one that knows me best, The one among all the rest. The one who knows the real me, The person no one else could see. Without you here, It wouldn't be the same. I'd miss you so much, I'd go insane. I'll be by your side ,For whatever comes your way. Trust me on this one, By your side is where I'll stay. We share many memories, Good ones and bad, Those memories were the best ones, I've ever really had. I'd miss the good times, Whether it was laughter or tears. But losing you,Is my only fear. There's not a day,That I'm not thinking of you, And how lucky I am, To have a friend that tells me the straight out truth. You're my best friend, No matter what you do. My definition of a best friend,Is everything I see in you. *she knows who i'm talking about* (© copyright 2005 )

"Why is it the one u love, Love ur best friend?" (© copyright 2005 )

Congradulations

Up late and crying Again tonight Nothings ever going to make What I did right I took away my dignity You crushed my confidence Made me loose grip Of all real sense You changed my moralsY ou twisted my views Not for the better of me But so they'd suit you Not once Did you ever have my best interest in mind It was all about you The entire time You played me like a fool Congratulations!! (© copyright 2005 )

just a random note

Camille, you've been Stephanie's friend for a while and i've seen how you are towards her. Tells me that you're a great friend to her and agree. Camille you have became my best friend to i'm not trying to take you away from Stephanie just wanted you to know that. love you. (copyright 2005 )

My Mom and My Best Friend

I never stop to realize my mother is my best friend she is the one that was there that minute and was there to the very end. I never knew the one that raised me could advice me on some boys the one that had to clean up my vomit and my toys. Mom I love you dearly I just don't know how to say that you in my life has gave me the life today. You care about me so much and I seem to push away, but when the times I needed you the most I couldn't doubt you wouldn't have stayed. abandonment is out of your question, Abuse is out of your reach you love is what's unconditional and security is what you seek. At times I don't listen majority it's for my own good that's because I'm naive and took advantage of everything I could. You are the core of my heart the one that keeps it beating everyday no a boy that's in a stupid love poem because in time they'll go away. But you are forever, the one that is guarenteed to be there when i reach out will need you rush at my care. So thank you mom again for being my mom and friend because you are forever and that is till the end. (copyright 2005 )

Typical Puerto Rican

To all the haterz out there that will never amount to nothing You look me up and down with out even knowing me. Yes, can i help you did you loose your ass on ma face I think not. You judge me saying I'm a hoe I'm a b%tc! well guess wat ur accusation's are on par a friend once told me (stepahine S.) If i am i b%tc! and b%tc!s are female dogs and dog's bark and bark comes from trees and trees are part of nature and nature is beautiful than guess wat, I'm a he!! of a b%tc!. I'm called dumb if i say a smart thing i'm dumb if i say a dumb thing. I lose anywayz. A true friend well not dissaprove your character but act upon it. Sometimez to determine who's a real friend, you have to pick a fight to see who is gonna back you up. Cry, just to see who will dry your tears. Talk quietter just to see who is listening. If you don't like I don't care I'm not going to change just to please your sorry a$$ I have been loved just the way i am and if don't like wat ya see then jump off. (copyright 2005 )

What Is Poetry To Me?

What is poetry ? Poetry is the tears of a women after her prince spills his love confession. The giggle of children and The heat that flushes cheeks into a delicate pink rose at the first kiss. Poetry is the rustling of golden leafs dancing on an autumn sunset. The tremble of knees when love comes knocking in hearts. The sway of a mans walk with the charm with which he speaks. The seductive rhythm of a women's waist while she La Flamenco . Its found in the dancing of tongues in sweet kiss. In the bliss of lovers and in the hearts of friends. Poetry is ... The beauty of life. (copyright 2005 )

Shoot For the moon even if you miss you'll still land among the starz

TO My Dear Graduates Of 2005 I know this was only Jr. High and it doesn't seem like a big deal. But it's a hell of a deal. We are freshmen of highschool this is a huge beginning. There's not Ms. Gonzalez to run to everytime you wanna get outta class. Our when you're hungry you can't just waltz into the office getting pretzel(ma gurlz know what i'm talking bout.) Focus all you can and keep yourself busy cuz if not you're gonna fall into da wrong crowd. Please try your best to love life i know from expreience. Just think, life could be worst. But to make a long story short, Congradulations and you made it this far why not keep up the goos work. *To ma special peoplez please stay in touch i love ya guys Steph, ALicia,Giddy,Steven, Camille,...... (copyright 2005 )

She Doesn't Deserve A Clown

Did you really have the heart Or if you ever even truly care How could you make her think That you would always be there This girl is my closest friend We been together for a while I swear there is not one time Where she would never smile Tell me now what happened Now come and look at her face She doesn't look like a happy Girl, in a very happy place She will not even talk to me Without a tear drop in her eyes You broke her soul to pieces For she believed in all the lies How could you still pretend For more than a whole year Listen boy, you did itwrong iI will make this fucking clear You don't deserve anything Or any other pure girls heart If you do not help her onow IowI will fucking tear you apart Now she is carrying your child And you promised you'd stay But then at six months pregnant You suddenly then ran away And her heart is still aching Her family says it's a disgrace But the only shame I see here Is the one that coats face YouceYou bastard, I swear I hate you I'd do anything to see you bleed If you do not support my friend Whenever she will be in need For her family doesn't want her They say better off she's dead All because she has your child Get that in your fucking head If you ever hurt her once more Your face will be under my feet I will show you how low you are Because you think its fun to cheat So many of us have her back Were supporting her all the way What goes around comes around And so one day you will pay And if I ever do see you again I promise I will get you down Because she is my best friend And she don't deserve a clown *This was a story created in my diary that turned into a poem cuz i imagined one my friends pregirls my Gurlz please don't make me have to hurt some boy cuz they wanna leave you GOD forbbid you get pregnant then i will do serious damage to you love ya (copyright 2005 )

Another Day

When we rise up from our bed, we don't take time to realize. that as we are alive,another is pronounced dead. as another day passes by. when we put on our clothes, take care of hygiene, and eat our food. we again don't stop to think, that we are more fortunate that those who can't take care of themselves, and to do what they should do. yes I can honestly say,that even as we live and breathe. we try to enjoy another day we are troubled about what tomorrow may conceive. (copyright 2005 )

Pics

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Just Want To Have Fun

I just want to have fun I want to live knowing that I was the one who made the decision even though it hurt I learned. I want to be able to smile when I die knowing that I lived my life with my pride. I don't want to be judged on my character and be inferior to others. I just want to be happy that's what everyone wanted. Now I take advantage. Slow me down if I'm headed on the wrong track but then let me go to take things back. Don't tell me how to do things just show me and I'll learn. This life is hard but now I love it. It's the best one and only life I ever will have. (copyright 2005 )

Friends don't carry knives

A stranger stabs you in the front. A boyfriend stabs you in the heart. A friend stabs you in the back, But best friends don't carry knives! -by: harleybaby159 (copyright 2005 )

Don't Give Up

When you feel like giving up when you feel you don't belong just ask your self why you held on? Why did you stay? Why did you think. Life is not want you want it is not served to you in a platter. Nor is it given for free. If you want something you earn it, you go for it. A determined person doesn't wait for the oppertunity they attack it. you need to know that even though your world stops, everyone else keeps on going People will cry for you but then eventually they will stop. Fighting doesn't decide who wins it just determines who's left. You have to face to world even if you don't want to. It's sometimes like a patio door you never know which side is open until you walk into it. So never give shoot for the moon even if you miss you'll land among the stars. (copyright 2005 )

Another Hidden Poet

"WHEN I LOOK IN THE MIRROR..." (S.Rodriguez) Everybody looks at me and says im unique but sometimes i feel average and incomplete sompeople look at me and say im going to be famous but sometimes i dont feel good enough or has what it takes When i look in the mirror i say when im doubtful im going to make it cause i will be hopeful when i look in the mirror i say when im mad be glad your here cause you'll soon be unstoppable When i look into the mirror i see this boy whos knows to be strong and trying to avoid it i see magic all around cause im amazing all year round i start to feel alittle more confident that i can survive this harsh bad world When i look in the mirror i take some time time to see who, who the hell am i do i wanna reach for the stars or crumble in space i have no expression on my face When i look in the mirrir i want to be the boy you see on T.V. i have talent i now i do but how do i know if its good enough for you When i look in the mirror i swallow my pride to finally say who am i i took some time but i finally grew into to something for me not for you When i look in the mirror i see a man Ready to face the world just as you can(copyright 2005 )