Trance Of No Remembrance

They say come don't be afraid I won't hurt you. I won't tell if you don't Then you resist and they hurt but they don't tell. They don't care. You are left there. Helpless lost in a trance of no remembrance Of no thought of yourself. You feel as a whole different person they changed you they hurt you. Of drunken words of rape.

Computer boredness

Lyrics fill my head as the thoughts run through my mind. It's funny how they run but they don't seem to leave my head. Poems describe my life release my pain and agony of cold blooded hearts and unspoken words of fantasy. Music comforts my ears as the words slip in my mouth. The words that are more than words.

Love Is More Than A Word

"Love is just a word not a feeling"-Stephanie Are you sure it's just a word. It may seem that way because when it's said it's not defined by that person. But remember Love is 4 letters so is pain, so is lies, and so is beat. Pain is a feeling of hurt of dread. A feeling that also is experienced by love. Lies is what is told about the word love but is never truly define as a feeling more as an advantage. Really there is no definition of love, love defines the feeling of a person. It depends on the way you define it. Love is not just a word it is an expression towards life, friendship, relationship, and object. I love you, you love me why because that's the way we feel. Now Stephanie do you think Love is Just a word? Or does it have a more logical explanation?

I wanna Runaway

I wanna runaway, Runaway to your building and sit there. Sit there and cry, a cry that you would hear, and come to my distress. I would say I still love you and you would take me upstairs and fix all my problems you have caused. You would say say you love me and then I would cry because I've heard this once before. But I still continue to kiss your lips that lie because they make me feel warm and calm. I wanna Runaway hoping never to be found only by you. I would trust you cuz I know you wouldn't tell a soul. I wanna sit by the steps where you asked me to be your girl and cry. A cry that you wouldn't hear because I want to absorb the time shared. I wanna Runaway And run into your arms and cry. Cry so you would hear me and hold me tighter. Then I know I'm home.

Substituted blood for tears

At night

I use blood for tears

To feel pain Release my fears

I never Cried

real tears

because use drops Of blood for tears

But one day

I came home The razor was gone

Mom was on the phone

They took me to a psycho place

And even though I was sad Not one tear crossed my face

That razor

was my life I told the Docs

But they shook their heads Looked at the clock

One week later I was released

And finally I Finally I'm free, free.

And I remembered those nights I used blood for tears And before I Knew it

I was crying real tears.

Another stupid love poem

Here I go again ProbablyFalling right back in love this the thing that i am scared of? I think it's differentThis time around I think it's really love What I found Because he looksLike he couldn't hurt a fly He doesn't look like the type To make a girl cryI can picture usHolding hands, smiling Not me locked up in my room Crying I can picture us dancing Finally found the right guy A guy who knows he's in love And isn't afraid to hold my hand I hope this isn't just Another stupid love poemI hope this is the way My life is going to be

I hope

I hope one day you'll miss me and I hope one day you'll see that the girl you really want is me. I hope that you'll soon want me back, and start to feel the pain,I hope you'll do your very best, to make me happy again I know you feeling sadness but I'm the ones who's torn apart, So why did you have to do this?.. why did you break my heart? I hope that soon you'll realize exactly what you've done to me, you broke and locked up my heart and threw away the key. I thought u were special, I thought you were mine, but if you want to be like this then fine 'm gonna get over you not sit around and mope, And as for all them things, well..I guess I can only hope.

Scarred to love again

These walls around me have crumbled, And I'm so scared to love again,I don't want my heart to be left shattered, And to experience even more pain trying to drop down my defenses, And keep my heart wide open,But at the same time I'm keeping my guard,I will not again be left broken. My eyes are sad and I'm so alone, Why did he have to lie?? I have lost all my trust in people,It's not there even when I try, I am finding this so frustrating,I just want to go and move on, But each time someone gets a little to close,I push them away like it's wrong. They need to know my heart is bruised, And it may take time to mend, But if they don't rush and take it slow, It'll be worth it all in the end.

Broken Hearts

People tell me,That it will get better, Broken hearts,Dont last forever. Just let time, Become youre friend, Then youre heart. Will start to mend. But broken hearts,Never heal, The pain that is there,Is forever real. Time does nothing,But make things worse, We cry more tears,Than out worth. I have had to endure, Too much pain, Found it so hard, To pull through the rain.I have seen too many things, That made me die inside,The impact of them, Making me cry.Hurting so bad, Wanting to run away, From everything wrong, But the pain will always stay. Broken hearts,Last forever, They never heal,They can never be put back together.

Slices

Lying on the floor thinking what I have done. Wondering to myself where I had run. I was doing so good then I messed up all because of you I look like a nut. You hurt me more than once let alone more than twice then just cuz of you I continue to slice. Slice because I miss you slice because I feel pain slice because death is hoping I would gain. But reallyI'm hallucinating it's just i haven't done it in so long. Or maybe it you i could be wrong. You trigger my feelings you make me think about sad things. Things that make me mad bad memories that will bring- pain, suffing torment don't you see. You of all people i thought less you would be. I have to stop i just got to say good bye cuz if i don't i'm just gonna die.

When You Love Someone

When you love someone so deep inside,It seems like it's so easy to hide. You've loved him for so very long,You would think he could do no wrong. Every day you would hope and pray,That he would always stay this way. He treated you like you should be treated,You thought your life was finally completed. You thought your love was growing true, And then one day it was all so blue. He started putting you down and it hurt, You thought all you were to him was dirt. He started ignoring you and you wondered why, All you wanted to do was curl up and die. You thought your relationship would never end, But that was all so fake and pretend. One day he was so sweet to you,You thought all those things were maybe untrue, A day later he was back the same,You thought you were the one to blame. He thought the relationship was getting too serious And that you had become a little too curious. By this time you knew it wouldn't last, All the nice things he said were in the past. You thought that you would marry him some day, But this time God wanted to get his way. You wanted things back how they were before, But you knew this couldn't happen anymore. It was a Wednesday about 11 o'clock, You heard the news and it wasn't a shock. You knew this was going to happen soon, As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon.

Lost

I can't say anything to convince you to stay,I just wish things hadn't turned out this way.It hurts to say, I don't know you anymore,And yes well done, you successfully shut the door.You closed it, locked it, and threw away the key.You never believed all the love I held inside me.I cared for you so much girl, and you threw it aside.And never will you know all the tears that I cried.But all you have is a "f**k you" attitude for all my tears.Sometimes i wish you'd see,That i just can't forget you easily.Of course you moved on,And don't care how i feel.But i still think what we had was real.Obviously you don't care,Cause whenever i need you,Your never there.So just forget me, And watch me cry.Watch my heart bleed.

The truth

Cold and alone Shattered and torn As I sit here tonight Thinking of my wrongs I don't understand Why can't I just be strong And just move along I try to act like I don't care And that I'll be ok But deep inside I cry and cry Thinking about the things I've done But now when I hear what they say And how it isn't true It hurts so bad knowing that You believe it tooI know because of my past This doesn't look so good But I swear to youIt isn't true

Summer Days

Summer Days flirting like crazy hold me tight take my phone i'll take your hat you picked me up i gave it back i ran, you chased the race began few months later we were hand in hand everyone knew it was you and me in your arms was were i was suppose to be.

Love Finds A Way

I've tried my best to forget you,since we broke up that day. But no matter what I do, Love always finds a way. I've tried crying myself to sleep as I thought this will make me feel better. But it did the opposite of my expectation,cause i only dreamed of the times we had together. I've tried dating with someone else, and tried to be his girl for a day. But this didn't help a bit, cause i only longed for your warm embrace. I've tried thinking of you with another girl, and convinced myself that she's better than me. But this just made my feelings worse, cause my heart got filled with jealousy.So, i was left with no more choices, and my love for you got More instead of less. as i have failed to erase you in my heart,though I've tried my best of the best. Now, i realize how much i love you, and i regret that we broke up that day. In spite of me trying so hard to forget you,Love always finds a way.. -a way to keep us together.. -a way for us to recall our past.. -a way for us to fall again for each other.. -a way for our love to last.