How do you like your coffee?

ESPRESSO~A strong coffee brewed by forcing steam under pressure through darkly roasted, powdered coffee beans.shes a cup of coffee

a quick rush through the veins as if i bit my lips,

leaving the sweetest taste on my tongues tip,what a bitter day.

_{thanks sean thats the sweetest pic comment}

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for the past hour i've been sitting here. typing, backspacing, writing, erasing, editing, revising. and I just want you to know; pouring your heart out isn't easy.

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Congas, Guiro, Broki

You know I never really knew how many Boricuas there were till i went to Orchard Beach. I mean there was just a squad of them. And it felt like Boricuas. Like there was salsa bands playing there was a little group of old men hitting the drum, singing old tunes from the pueblo's. It's funny, because i feel like half of them usually forget where they come from, and the actual history of El Boriquen. The were plenty of Puerto Rican's... yea with the Puerto Rican Flag tattoo the little coqui's[frog]. How many of them really sit there and actually bother to pay attention to the voices and the legacies that once brought the people, their people, our people. Hector Lavoe-singer, Iris Chacon- singer & icon, Marc Anthony-singer, Ismael Rodriguez-singer, Tito Puente-Drummer. All these people and so many more way before my time has brought Puerto Rico to it's foundation. And today out of the 17 years of my life i felt it, in spirit. It's pretty crazy but i did, i felt all the pain, the suffering.Lagrimas, Joy, pride and strength. It's crazy,i'm said to have an old soul, i for my age enjoy listening to all the classics, dancing all the love ballads and talking with my viejitasabout the old times.

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Tattoo:$$

so today i've i experienced a familiar pain.

Got my first tattoo... sort of a big deal.

But this pain wasn't as unbearable, it was sort like a old memory. You're probably wondering what the fuck might i be talking about , but that can be saved for another entry. This guy was pretty good at making me feel comfortable ^not. But he did a pretty good job. and no i defiantly did not tip him.

Waited for about 3 hours for the tattoo and it took about 45 min. to an hour. This is defiantly no my last tattoo there are more to come. I don't really want anything big cuz I'm pretty petite. Luckily my hunny pie was there and my darling "brother" was there to ease the tension. Mommy was scared for her little pumpkin so she just made me nervous. I really don't want to say it hurt because everyone has different levels. It's pretty swollen as of now and it burns but I'm completely satisfied with my choice. =]

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Things I've noticed

Today... 1.The problem with some men is they tend to think out loud. Thus the name Ayo; Slim I've embraced the street name for some reason doesn't necessarily bother me. Others are just artless and unrefined. guys describing girls reproductive systems, breast or anything relating to that nature is just no bueno What ever happened to chivalry? I guess it perished along with charm and patience. 2. Why is it so difficult to explain my feelings? If that was not a problem my life would be exactly the way i wanted it .
3. The pimples on my face is defiantly not because i don't care for it. it's fucking stress. But i wish i actually was expressed through my weight rather than my face. -I eat lots of delicious calories. 4.Guys I've finally answered you're question. The real reason why girls look in every reflection they see is not because they're checking themselves out. They check to see if their ass is still in the correct place. yes that's exactly it. Don't get me wrong i do the same thing. And it's in every single reflection like the ones on the big trump buildings. I guess I'm waiting to see a change. 3. I can possibly be a Buddhist? - If you end desires, you end pain. That shit seems pretty logical to me. If you go after something you want and you can't get it you just end up feeling like shit. or do you pick yourself up and try again. _sincerely: Tinker (© copyright 2005)all rights reserved

Want

5 things i want: -I want to talk to my ex...haven't had a conversation in a while...he's cool. -I want to slap some one just to let out some subconscious venting. subconscious mind: psychic activity just below the level of awareness <br> -I want to meet Rihanna and have lunch & maybe a little shopping -i want to see last posts drama finish for good 5 questions: -When did that term "making love" come into existance? -How much affection is too much affection? - How can I move on after that -Why can't marijuana be legal? -Is blue balls worse than getting to the peak of cumming and not being able to at that moment? 5 things I hate: -When people are dirty -When people put me under scrutiny. -When girls tend to flaunt the wrong part of their body. -Roaches - Not being able to speak out about a particular situation 5 things i need: -Sexy, Comfy PJ's vicky secrets =] -Make sure to have a good grades -i need to step it up on my restaurant outtings and drinks -Oragnize my life

-certify my cretieria

5 things I love: -Food & Wine -Music -Writing -Dancing

-girlfriend

5 things that cross my mind daily: -whats in the fridge? -is someone interesting going to text an actual person,that i want to text me

-where will i be in 6 years -I need a money making job$$$ for my shoe collection -gotta call someone but i'll do it later 5 things to learn appreciate: -God -Family -Girlfriend -Friends -life >br?

5 songs i listen to mostly: -Disturbia-Rihanna [o=O] -Sun Again - Kinnie Starr -Drop Dead-Elephant man -Hear Beat- Movado -Addiction- Ryan Leslie & Cassie

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Lie

You see my dear, there are many different lies. Lies i tell my mother from things that i must hide. How my dress is shorter than usual and why hips began to expand. Or the kind of lies i tell you to things you misunderstand. My lies are different shades of gray mostly close to white. But all my lies are unexplainable and usually better write. I lie to preserve my dignity i lie because i care. I lie because on certain occassions things are better left unshared. I've maintained a certain threshold of reasons why i lie. Like the time i told it was nothing when i began to cry. The truth they say! The" Truth"! In life, “the illusion” is often prettied up to sell, to convince you to tell you that i love you. To smother you with kisses and suffocate with hugs so i can mask up all my lies to prove to you truth lies love. (© copyright 2005)all rights reserved

The scent of you lingers... it immediately reminds me of you. But it hurts knowing you left me and i can't have you at this very monment. How i must wait til everyone has laid their head to rest before i can take your hand kiss it gently. You're skin close to mine;as one. I miss you my dear, and all i have are the memories that shall lull me to sleep Sometimes i sleep so much just to have the image,the thought the practical idea of you next to me. I don't care about anything, except how my hand felt in yours[warm] When we're alone i get beside myself, the way i feel for you there is no need to pretend. (© copyright 2005)all rights reserved