Dear God I Write
*Before thinking this is suicidal depression read the whole thing first it's an overcome of something in my life*
God please read this
I write this to you
To tell you all the things
That I had to go through
I cut myself sadly
In the middle of the night
Thinking about all the things
That I just couldnt do right
Friends thought I was crazy
cuz I lived a good life
But its that they didnt know
What I hid with a knife
My feelings of sadness
Worries and fears
My feelings of darkness
And each every tear
I thought that tomorrow
Might be the last that I live
I had no more to offer
Nothing left to give
I had a good plan
Or so that I thought
I wanted to die
Deaths what I sought
I woke in the morning
I love yous were heard
Tears tried to fall
My vision blurred
Nobody knew i wanted it to be last day
I went up to my room
To sick to go to school
Mother being blind
Acting a fool
I hid in my closet
I took out the knife
The one that would shortly
Take away my life I thought,
“I have to do something
I can not sit here and wait For something to get better
Its already too late”
“Please dont say Im a coward”
I whispered out loud
I wanted mommy to know
I tried makin her proud
I backed out of the little room
And shut the bathroom door
I wanted to slit my wrists very deeply
And fall to the floor
I put the blade Up to my wrist
Praying to have courage
To give it a twist
I breathed out real slowly
And started to press down
But I decided my own fate
Threw the knife to the ground
“This isn’t what I really wanted
I just wanted to be heard
To have someone to talk to
Who wont think I’m absurd”
I ran to my mother
I told her my fears
She started crying softly
But wiped away my tears
"Amanda my baby
I know what went wrong
You didnt talk to anyone
But you still held on strong
Im going to take you
To get something you deserve
The help that you wanted
But didnt have the nerve”
She soothed me softly
Until I felt good Until I felt happy
The way that I should So I thank you dear god
For having her save my life
And I am glad that I decidedTo throw down that knife
(copyright 2005 )
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